Yikes

Man, I was thinking tonight, and it hit me. In less than 3 years, I will be out of college. I will be a real adult. Unless I go to graduate school, I'll be working. I'll be a working adult. Yikes. Some people I knew were like, practically married at that age. Then there's me, who's never even had a relationship. Yikes. I hope stuff turns out well. Gosh, life is so intense. I remember graduating from high school, and thinking, "Yep, here we go again." And I guess we are going again. But there's no going again after this. That is intense. I'm not sitting here afraid or anything. I'm just, musing. Man, I've been thinking about women a lot. Basically how I would enjoy an intimate female friend/girlfriend. I don't mean intimate in a sexual way here, I mean emotionally and mentally. I don't know, it just feels like an experience I would benefit from. Plus, right, you know. Not desperate here, just patiently yearning. That's an oxymoron. Saturday night, I spent at my friend's condo in Minneapolis. It was an interesting time. I really really enjoyed seeing a couple good friends from high school who I don't get to see very often. That was a lot of fun. One individual in particular, she has to be one of my most very favorite people. I felt very fortunate to be able to indulge in some conversation with her. There were other people I also enjoyed seeing, some of whom I haven't seen since graduation, so that was good. But I don't know, the same thing got me. It's like, why am I here? Am I really here to spend time with friends, or am I just here drinking Japanese beer? So no one gets the wrong impression, I am not a heavy drinker at all. When I do choose to drink, which seems to only be when I'm at my friend's condo, I stay the whole night and don't do anything stupid. I don't know, I wish I could have spent more time with the guy who actually owns the place. But, right. Other stuff inhibits that at times. I played bass trombone tonight, really loudly. I probably annoyed a lot of people, but whatever. It helps my tone and my orchestral sound. Right, band list comes up soon, more details coming.