Brisk Fall Day

Today was a brisk fall day. It was windy, and cold. It was enjoyable. I've decided to adopt a trademark fashion item. I think I'm going to wear a scarf whenever I wear a coat. That's classy, isn't it? So, I played my trombone tonight. We have band auditions next Monday. And as usual, I am over preparing for them. I don't know, I just get very paranoid. I want absolutely no chance of being usurped in concert band. And you know, to be honest, there really is no chance of me being beat. I have attained a skill in trombone that unless you are Benjamin Yates, Luke Sodergren, or Kelsey Eisenmann, cannot be topped at Luther College. I'm not trying to be cocky, but it's just how it's going down right now. I feel pretty confident in my playing. But still, I want to make sure I nail this audition. I don't want to make any dumb mistakes, and I want to have all the technical aspects under my fingers. So, yeah. My philosophy class has been making me think. I am a slave to physical desires. And most likely, you the reader, are too. And I realized the other day, it sucks, and I want to stop it. My roommate and I got into a conversation about sexuality the other night that just accentuated it. I don't know, I am definitely starting to feel the effects of my decision to wait until marriage to have sex. Like, in a sexual atmosphere (college), you definitely are feeling pulls to engage in intercourse. It's just something I have to control and get over. And along with that whole thing, I'm having issues with how I react to others' sexuality. What I mean is that some individuals I know have engaged in sexual intercourse, and I just don't really know how to react to it. Because I don't condone it, and don't agree with it, but at the same time, I don't want to judge these people. And I have to think, "Have I lost respect for these individuals?" I don't know, I have and I haven't. Actually, it's not my place to lose respect for anyone who did such an act. Their decisions on whether or not to have sex are obviously different than mine. And I respect their opinions and such. But I can't agree with them. Eh, so there's that rant. I never see Kathleen. It sucks. That situation is going nowhere, and it is just depressing. I mean, I'm not depressed, but it is depressing. If that makes sense. Man, I miss my dog. I can't wait to see him on Friday. I was going to go to the Gopher football game on Saturday, but now my friend at the U of M will not be in town, so I'm not going. That's disappointing, but he has a very good reason for not being there. So, that's what's going on right now. Trombone, philosophical issues, going nowhere with Kathleen, going home for the weekend. I could have sworn I had something of actual substance to write about, but I forget it now. At any rate, I hope everyone is doing well.