Awkward Conversations

I've been writing a lot on this blog lately. I'm trying to get off of it, as my British one is so much more insightful, less sappy, and in general, more interesting. But since only like, 1 person reads this anyways, I'll indulge them since they're never on Skype. Anyways, last Friday, the girl referred to in the last post and I went to Starbucks, our usual weekly ritual. Over mocha on my part and chai tea latte on hers, we went through the usual chit-chat and flat gossip. Eventually, I felt I had to break out the "issue." After about 5 minutes of awkwardly posturing and such, I finally hacked some of it out. We don't need to exactly go through what I exactly said. I told her I liked her, and didn't know what to do about it, seeing the interesting situation we find ourselves in this year. It came back out (I'm fairly certain), that she likes me as well, she's just nervous about dating because her last relationship not only ended poorly, but her ex-boyfriend turned out gay. Although I have little fear about being turned gay, I do (well, I don't, since I've never dated before) understand her apprehensions a little. We both agreed we didn't exactly know what to do, and we'd think about it for a week or however long. So, that's what happened. I'd be lying if I said I wanted her to decide she didn't want to date. I feel I want to date her. but you know, what can you do exactly? I don't know. Just have to be my normal self, I suppose. I don't want to get her anything or do anything extreme for Valentine's Day, but I did buy a blank card with a modern art painting I know she likes on the outside. I'll just write some little note inside, I think. That's what happened. End of story, I need to go do stuff. Later.