Thursday, and the Benefits of Eccentricity

Today was an interesting day. I got up, went to a trombone lesson, which went well. Then, I drove to the church camp that I attended as a youth to just sort of chill and visit some friends who were there. That was fun. For the first time in a long while, I was able to be around a friend of mine and not get filled with romantic thoughts. So you know, that was very pleasing to me. I had a good time. It was a beautiful day, very sunny, but pretty hot. I thought it was a good day to experience the romance of the American road. I've heard that the only true way to experience America is by driving, and I believe it. I don't know, I find it almost relaxing to take a nice drive in the country. It was Thursday, so I went swinging at the caves. Swing dancing was fun tonight, but I am feeling myself limited in my moves. I need to master more styles. I need to practice the Charleston and Lindy, and get strong enough to do the sweet flips and stuff. Over the course of the night, I threw myself into some more personal turmoil. So, I have somewhat befriended the daughter of an adult I know, and invited her to come swing dancing. So, I don't know, I had talked with her a bit before, but I don't know, I just found myself super attracted to her tonight. She just seemed to be the sort of person that understood my personality. And she actually wasn't just shielded in tons of virtue or whatever, like so many girls I know. Not to say virtue is bad, but I don't know, I think a person should experience the world. Except when it comes to sex, which I am stricly wait until marriage, I'm for having a couple drinks or whatever. Although I can't lie, I'm not a fan of ciagarettes or tobacco at all. It's just lame. This girl seemed to indicate she had a smoke every now and then, which didn't impress me, but hey, we all have problems. Anyways, so I found myself super attracted to her. And when we get back, she asks if I want to come hang out with her and her friend at Perkins for a while. And like an idiot, I say no. I don't know, I wish I would have gone. I mean, it's not like she was asking me in a way that indicted she was attracted or anything, but still, it must have meant that my company was enjoyed in some rudimentary way. I had some dumb excuses for not going, that I had a headache (and I sort of did), that I had to practice the piano (which I did), and I did talk to a friend earlier about going to White Castle. It turns out, all I did was go play the damn piano for 15 minutes. When women that I find attractive invite me out, I need to seize the opportunity. It's a girl that I find really cool, and most of all, interesting. So many people are just not interesting. So, I don't know, I want to spend some time with her, befriend her and such. I realized something else tonight. I do not know how to take a girl out on a date. Or show interest in a woman that is romantic without being an idiot. I don't know. You walk a fine line between just going to a movie or going on a date. I think mainly, it's just me. I bet if a lot of guys would have taken a girl out to a movie, there are ways to show that indeed it is a date. I do not know these mysteries. I wish I did. I should like to take a girl on a date, a real one, with no alternate interpretations. I don't know, right now, I just really want to get to know this girl. It's been a while since I've met someone that I find so interesting, and fun to talk to. I don't know, I even sort of think this is the type of person that wouldn't mind watching Star Wars or something. I find myself most attracted to people who are a little eccentric. Eccentricity is what makes people interesting I think. Although, if you only look skin deep, it seems to make a person geeky, or awkward, or strange. If people would look at me skin deep, I think they would definitely see a Star Wars geek who had nothing better to do with his time. If one looked closer, they would wonder why Star Wars is so attractive, what drives this person, what sort of happiness does he glean from such an activity. Of course, you could use that on anything, be it the punk rock lifestyle, computer gamers, swing dancers, coin collectors, etc, etc, etc. Yeah, everyone interesting that I know has at least some quirks. Well, I still have more than a month of summer. Plenty of time for some friendship building. Hopefully it will go well.