Eating Alone

Today I ate dinner alone. It really isn't a new occurence. I estimate I ate about 85% of my meals alone last year. But I don't know, it was sort of depressing tonight. I was eating a French dip sandwich, and the girl of my dreams was sitting about 6 feet away. With her boyfriend. And I was like, "Why is it that I'm eating alone, with my dream girl (at this point) right there, with another guy, and I have to leave in 5 minutes to go sit between a couple weird kids and play in the second jazz band?" And then I was like, "If I had put all the effort I did into learning Star Wars trivia into social skills, I maybe would not have this problem." So yeah, definitely had some self pity. Oh well, it happens. I was sort of offended last night. This aspiring bass trombone player, who wasted all my time with the spring opera fiasco was at our trombone social dinner. And another kid was comparing his theory class to a birthday party where people had no fun. And then this bass trombone kid was like, "Yeah, like a birthday party for a kid who goes to church," insinuating that church kids did not have fun birthday parties because they didn't drink or do drugs, etc, etc, etc. Now, this kid is a self proclaimed atheist, and I guess he's big into that. But you know, I'm not an atheist, and I was somewhat of an evangelical Christian in my high school years. I was really into it. And I usually don't get offended when people make statements reflecting their beliefs about faith or religion or whatnot. But I was honestly offended by it. I was sort of thinking of pulling out the cross that I always wear around my neck (under my shirt), and fiddling around with it, to try and make a point that indeed, I am Christian and do go to church (not as regularly as I should, but that's not the point right now). It was uncalled for and I was offended. And that's the end of that. I practiced trombone for like, an hour and a half tonight. It felt good. Women situation is as usual. I could go play cards with my roommate and see the blonde oboe girl, but I don't know, I hate cards, and I'm just in sort of a funk, where no girls at Luther really make me want to woo them. That sounds bad, but it's not like there aren't an abundance of wonderful women here. I'm just in a funk, I suppose. The girl I would like to woo has a boyfriend, and everybody else appealing either have boyfriends or do not go to school here. That's a shame. Oh well. I'm getting a little sick of my roommate. I mean, he's a great friend, but lately, I just spend too much time around him. Unfortunately for me, he's somewhat befriended a lot of my friends, so it's not as easy as it may seem to escape. I don't know, sometimes I just get the feeling he follows me around. And I mean, I can understand that, I do it too. I just wish he wasn't friends with everyone I knew, and hit on all the girls that I think are nice and attractive. He's a little more outgoing than I am. It's just a little frustrating. Enough of this, I need to go watch a movie trailer and play some Battlefront. By the way, my friend made it safely to Germany, so huzzah! Old news, but still newsworthy. Hope everyone is well.