Tuesday

So, I had a let down today. I went to Leeann Chin for lunch, and saw Laura, and got to talking. And she came out and sat with me for a while. Anyways, I asked her if she'd be interested in going to see a movie or whatever. To make a long story short, she said to call her after work, so I did. Then she said she didn't have any money, and doesn't like to have people pay for her, because she feels guilty. So bottom line, I don't know what she's doing right now, but I'm sitting here not doing anything with her, when I thought I would be, and that is disheartening. When she said she didn't really want to go to a film or something, in my mind I was just like, "Damn it." So, that's my story. This is irritating, because it's like, you think okf all these alternate possibilities on why she didn't want to go. Is it that she really feels guilty? Did she not understand I was sort of asking her on a "date?" Does she not enjoy spending time with me, etc, etc, etc. So, lame. My mom suggested that next time, I make it explicitly clear that it would bring me joy to take her to a movie, and spend the money for her ticket. But, there is still time. I didn't have to get Scott from the airport, even though I could have now. It was a fine day at work. I was two minutes late from my lunch break, because I was talking with Laura at the restaurant. That did not impress me. I hate being late, and I should have been more conscious of the time, even if I was in the middle of such an enjoyable event. I bought my textbooks the other day for college. About $185. Not nearly as bad as it could have been. So, it's just sort of a boring night out now. I should have just asked if she wanted to watch Pulp Fiction. I don't know if any of you know, but I love Pulp Fiction. It's not a movie a lot of my friends would associate with me. But I love it. I think it's hillarious. Last night, I watched the last part of Return of the Jedi. I am finding it very hard to associate Darth Vader with the Anakin Skywalker of Episode III. I think it's a combination of being so indoctrinated with Vader as such a one dimensional character all this time, the actor difference, and the fact that I haven't watched the films from Episode I to VI. I wish they could have put Hayden Christensen in the suit when Luke unmasks him, and just made him up to look older. I think that would have improved the continuity quite a bit. I'm also irritated that when Anakin dies, they play the Imperial March. Darth Vader is redeemed when he kills the Emperor, and becomes Anakin Skywalker again. I wish they would change the musical cue to reflect that. Even so, man Star Wars is cool. So, that's the deal for the night. Definitely not cool, the situation with the girl. But, oh well. Stuff happens, you learn to get over it, and create new things.