Mystery No Longer

Today I hung out for a bit with the mysterious girl and this other chick going to England. She's very beautiful girl, both outwardly and inwardly. After I left the two of them, I instantly looked forward to our next meeting. So, I think that is a sufficient explanation to how I felt. It was a very pleasant meeting. It's not like I swept her off her feet or anything. Definitely not. But even though I was nervous, I felt like I was myself. I mean, I was still operating under the automatic guarded mode with a person I didn't know, but other than that, I didn't try to be someone I wasn't. I didn't hide the fact that I was a Star Wars fan, or a Twins fan, general stuff like that. I think I made a good impression. End of story. Maybe not. The thing that really depresses me is that this will most likely go the way of every other girl I've liked before. The problem I think is, I'm just so awkward about expressing myself. I don't think ever in my life have I asked a girl out on a date. Like, an outing that both of us knew was created because there was a special connection. I'm just, sick of living like this. Feeling half here. Well, the mysterious girl said we should get together in August. It's a shame I have to wait so long. Damn, I make this sound like it was such a big failure. We all had fun. And the smile she gave me when I said goodbye, well, it's burned into my brain until August, or September 10th, whichever comes first. And that's a good thing to have burned in. Hope everyone is well.