Internal Questions on Dating

I was walking to the Union on an absolutely beautiful day here at Luther, when something struck me. Why am I attempting to woo Becky, the blonde oboe girl? I don't know, I was just thinking about the direction of my life, with the recent engagements of my two best friends, and I was thinking about what sort of girl I should be on the watch for. And I thought, "You know, Becky is beautiful, nice, has amazing teeth, , likes to dance, is talented, fun to be with, etc, etc, etc. But I don't think I could play Star Wars Trivial Pursuit with her." And that small fact really hit me. I mean, the whole debate isn't based solely on Star Wars Trivial Pursuit, but the idea that it represents. An event later on in the day added to my internal debate. I went to a swing club session with the leader's sister and brother in law, who are awesome dancers. They were teaching collegiate shag, which I got a really good handle on, I think. Anyways, I spent a lot of time dancing with Emily, a girl who often crops up in this blog. Emily is beautiful, loves to dance, talented, fun to be with, nice, and is also a girl I would feel completely comfortable playing Star Wars Trivial Pursuit with. I would feel completely comfortable going to see a movie with her in my Jedi robe, or sitting around and discussing why the Minnesota Twins and New York Yankees are on different sides in a cosmic baseball allegory of good and evil, or explaining my conspiracy theory involving John Elway and the state of Colorado. Unfortunately for me, she is involved in a relationship with a great guy. Incredibly unfortunate for me, good for her, I suppose. As aforementioned, I was also thinking about my two friends' recent engagements. Neither of them would I characterize as being in significant relationships before dating their eventual fiancé(e). Well, you could consider one of them, I suppose. If you count 9th grade. Anyways, the question that I was posing to myself today was thus. Should we be holding out for a person we know is going to make us so happy, or in the absence of opportunity, do we get involved in people who we are fairly certain will not make us as happy? And this question I am asking strictly in the sense of dating. Like, I think I'm smart enough to know that marriage should be with the one person that truly completes us, and should never be sacrificed in a quest for time or goal. But in the realm that I operate in, what should I (representing the usual romantically frustrated college student) be looking for. Becky is avaliable, beautiful, nice, fun to talk with, yada, yada, yada. But you line up Becky and Emily, and say "Pick," there's no question. I go for the girl who can recite certain scenes of The Empire Strikes Back. And this is not about Star Wars. It's about someone who I understand, and who understands me. Someone who I'm not ashamed to show my real self. My real self just happens to include Star Wars, and that is the best example in this situation, because it's the least socially acceptable. I don't know. I'm attracted to Becky, and a girl from high school, and Emily, and God knows who else will come around. I so wish I could be with Emily, because I feel it's a relationship that would beget so much. But, I'm not. Does that mean I should just sit here alone, because a person I think will make me happy is not avaliable? Or would it just be a case of settling for second best? I don't mean this to sound like a rowing competition or anything, but that's sort of how it feels. Gah, the complications of women. I just wish I could find a way to help this yearning in my heart, to have someone to care for. Someone to care for me. Someone who, when I see her, will just make me smile, and want to be the best person I can be. There's a reason God is keeping Emily out of that capacity right now. Maybe in the future? Who knows. There's probably a reason why He's putting Becky in right now. Who knows. Just a quick rant. My roommate is watching South Park, and I absolutely loathe it. I hate that show with unbridled passion, and I just want to throw a brick through the TV, and then slap him for having so little self respect to dull his brain watching it. It is such worthless television programming. Anyways, those were my thoughts for the day. Hope everyone is well.