Rarg

Rarg is a word I created in high school. I like it. It has many uses. I am quite frustrated with my trombone playing. I just am not doing as well as I would like. I want to be a good player, and this wall I'm at is irritating. And I don't know, I don't want to be good as a result of any weird pressures on me. I want to be good because I personally want to be good. I will just have to keep practicing. Persevere! Oh man, I want to go swing dancing. To quote what I just said to Myra, if we want to get technical, I want to go swing dancing with Kathleen the oboist. Yes, we crossed paths today outside the music building. She did remember my name, so that's always a positive sign. Gah, women. Why do they exist solely to confound the male gender? Ha, that's not true, but you get the jit. Women have innumerable reasons for existence besides confounding men. Like running New Zealand. The hilarious thing is that I keep writing about a woman I haven't even spoken 100 words to in my whole life. I've taken it upon myself to lose weight. Once again, there are no outside factors pressuring me on this. I mean, I've always been a bit overweight, and it never has prevented me from engaging in activity that I enjoy or anything like that. But I don't know, I feel I'd just be more pleased with myself if I was at a lower weight. My goal is just to have a normal, healthy weight and a regular body shape. I think it's doable. Just have to keep up the flow of will power. My plan, thus far, is to only lunch on salad, work out twice a week, and try and limit consumption after about 9 or 10 o'clock, in addition to general meal consciousness. So, we'll see how that goes. Hopefully it's successful. I talked with an individual tonight who did not have an enjoyable evening. And I don't know, I certainly didn't help ease their pain with any insightful nuggets of wisdom. It's a situation that I am bound to secrecy about. But, basically, I just wanted to tell this individual to take control of their life, and rid it of the things that causes these intense issues, and don't look back. I mean, of course we will always have things that cause us problems. That's life. But I think if there's something that is causing you pain, and it can be remedied, you have to look out for your well being, buckle down, face the fear of change, and just go through it. That's my philosophy, at least, that I try to follow. I don't always succeed, but I don't think I've ever been in a situation that I would consider to be particularly dire. So, anyways, that's my thing on that. Man, I feel so busy these past few days. I wake up, then just keep going all day, until about 10 at night. I don't like it, but I have to continue to get my stuff done. Man, we got some difficult jazz band music today. Currently, I'm watching Hitch in my room. I would recommend it to you, readers of the blog. It's pretty funny. It's just the right balance of romance and mainstream that allows you to watch it without having a label attached.