Thursday Night

Hello everyone. Welp, it looks like I'll be going to see Kingdom of Heaven tomorrow night, my friend isn't going to come up. I'm not going to lie, I'm disappointed to not be able to see them, but I respect their decision, the reasons of which I don't fully understand right now. But that's okay. In all honesty, it's probably a lot more exciting for people a lot of other places besides Luther College, especially in my company. As we have established, I don't know many people, so I usually just spend my weekend nights watching movies or doing homework. Or maybe we haven't esablished that. I'll establish it now, I have a terrible time meeting new people. Like, an absolute horror at meeting new people. It's okay though. It's my burden to have a rough time meeting people, and I just have to deal with it. I am meeting new people, but just as I predicted at the beginning of the year, it takes a long long time. Anyways, the Twins won today, so that was good news. Apparently, something that I've said on this site has offended one of the readers. I don't know what it was exactly, not that the specifics really matter. Someone was offended, that's the only real point. I do apologize to that person, as sheepish as it sounds. It is rather sheepish, doing anything personal over the internet, so I'll stop right there. I have an intense fear of confrontation. Even when I know I'm right, which doesn't happen very often, except if you talk in the realms of history, Star Wars, or stuff like that. I don't know, I just can't stand talking with people about sensitive issues. I get flustered and can't get my words out. Of course, I can't get words out in normal conversation either, so that's nothing new. I don't know. Mainly, I think I just don't want to hear how I am not informed enough, or was insensitive, or hurt someone's feelings. I really don't like hurting people's feelings, but I seem to do it, mostly inadvertantly. And it's always to the people I consider to be close friends. It really irritates me. I wish I could stop causing pain to people, but it's a fact of life. I cause pain to others, and others cause pain to me. I cause pain to God, and He doesn't cause pain to me. I should take a cue from my Christian faith and atone for all these sins. And you know, I do, I just don't do it publicly, personally, in front of the people that I hurt. I should really look into doing that. I think that is something that everyone struggles with. It takes such a tremendous humbling and shedding of hubris to honestly look at how your deeds hurt other people, and acknowledge that fact to the person in question. It has to be one of the most difficult things people face. At least, it is for me. I guess we all struggle with things. I'm sure some people struggle with things that I think are second nature. In non intense issues today, I had a trombone lesson, which went well. I think I'm one of my trombone teacher's favorite students, simply because I do what he tells me. When I know I'm doing something wrong, I go in the practice room and try my best to correct it. That's what he said at least. Personally, I feel as if I don't get enough practice time. At least I'm improving. Some new Star Wars TV spots came out today, they were awesome, as expected. I drank some Mountain Dew, recovered from my sporting injuries, to an extent. I lent Brad my Episode III soundtrack, he seemed to really enjoy that, so I'm glad I could help him out. I wished I would have either struck up a friendship with jazz band girl earlier in the year or had more time to continue said friendship. I like her, she's quite nice. Other than that, I looked forward eagerly to getting out of here, and going home. I'm still not really excited for my Japan trip. I mean, I'm looking forward to it, it just hasn't captured my imagination yet. Not like France. Oh man, I wish I could go back to France. Anyways, hope everyone has a great night.